I would like to share my story and complications that I had faced during my pregnancy which led to miscarriages.

How a Normal Pregnancy converted into a complication – As a doctor, I was amazed that I had to go through such difficult time and had to accept that nothing is in my hands, anything can go wrong even though you have strong medical backup. Pregnancy for some women is very easy and they do not face any problems throughout the pregnancy, even if they are not very careful and living their life normally otherwise – still things go smoothly for them.

And then there are some group of females who really have to struggle, to complete even 7 months of their pregnancy. (I would say, these kinds of pregnancies are precious).

I had conceived normally like other girls at the age of 30. I use to have lot of morning sickness but could manage with it. At 6^th week I had complain of severe painless bleeding. I was sitting in my office and started bleeding………immediately I went to the Radiology department of my hospital and got the sonography done, the bleeding was due to some Retrochorionic collection but my yolk Sac was normal.

I was advised complete bed rest with hormonal therapy by my gynaecologist. After a week I recovered and things turned out to be normal. I rejoined my normal schedule. Things were moving normal. On week 17 after my job I went home and was sitting on dining table for my dinner and I suddenly started feeling heaviness in lower abdomen and an urge to pass urine.

I went to urinate and suddenly a gush of fluid with some membrane passed along with the urine. I could not make out what was that but due to my medical background I thought that it could be amniotic fluid, I called my gynecologist immediately, unfortunately she was not there in the town and referred me to some another gynecologist, the next day the sonography was done and found that there was no amniotic fluid left and my baby was in stress, I was hospitalised and treatment was given for survival of pregnancy but due to ruptured membrane the fluid was not refilled and abortion was induced.

I was diagnosed to have INCOMPETENT CERVICAL OS – this was a big trauma to me and my family, but due to the support of my family I could recover soon – as they kept on saying it is the first time and it can happen- we did not know the physiology this time; and we will take care the second time. I was advised by my gynecologist to plan second pregnancy after 6 months to get over the physical and emotional trauma of 1^st failed pregnancy.

The story does not end here, I conceived for the second time in Feb 2015, due to my past abortion and history of ‘Incompetent OS’ I was advised complete bed rest at 12 weeks with hormonal therapy. Also, I was advised to do wiring of Cervix at 12^th week but my gynecologist felt that there could be stimulation to the uterus and contractions may start and may lose pregnancy and therefore wiring was not done.

After that, things were normal till week 17, due to my past experience that dilation of cervix starts at the week 17, I got the sonography done , in spite of all the precautions the Cervical OS got opened at week 17 and I was admitted in emergency and Shirodkar Sling was placed to prevent Spontaneous labour with all the medicines. Things went smoothly for 10 days and on 16^th May 2015, morning as I woke up I again had a painless bleeding.

I called up my gynecologist and was admitted in the hospital. I was taken for emergency examination and was found to have Cervical tear. Again I lost my baby. This time it was critical condition. As soon as I delivered there was severe uterine bleeding. The condition was that decision had to be made of Hysterectomy, but with the Almighty’s grace, my uterus could be saved.

Now my condition is that it is difficult to plan pregnancy. Risk is involved.

Thanks to my husband & family who have supported me at every point of time, by saying that ‘ I am important, my health is more important’ , but somewhere you feel sad about the condition as the girls who were pregnant with me have delivered.

I can feel the incompleteness.

The only regret I have that – if my stitches were done at the 12^th week then the pregnancy would have survived or if natural expulsion was allowed instead of suturing later on then uterine injury could have been prevented, as of now the third pregnancy is more complicated . But that’s the destiny I think.

My only message to all women is to be extra cautious in pregnancy………as it can also harm your own health. So take care of yourself first! Take Care!

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